I am sitting on my bed, watching the ACMs (when I should be doing more work) and slightly dreading having to go back to work in the morning.
You see, I had such a great break. It was so nice to go to Texas and to see my best friend and to leave all my work at home so that I could spend a few days not thinking about it and trying not to worry about it. I realized, as I did worry about it, that I sometimes let my work (and other things that I shouldn’t worry about) run my life. And it was nice to get away from that for a while. To not have any grading to do. To not do any plans. To relax and read a book for me. To hang out with a friend and get away from it all for more than just a night.
Now, there were moments where I wish that I’d taken stuff with me and there were moments where it just felt good to be away from it. I sometimes think that people think teachers have it easier than they do. It’s an amazing job, but it’s a hard job too. And I do love it, but sometimes I wonder if I’ll make it with the way things have been going.
I said I wasn’t going to blog (well, now tat you can read that post since apparently I never actually posted it) that much in April because I was going to write. I haven’t started. And I could probably come back from a 7 day disadvantage, but I’m not sure if I will be able to.
I’ve been having a hard time getting motivated. And right now, I’m just feeling like I want another reprieve from it all.
I will go to school and I will be fine. I will be reinvigorated by the kids again – even though I’m sure that some of them will do their best to make things a challenge for me. Without this challenge, teaching would be nothing.
And I can’t say enough about how much I love a challenge. And the next 11 weeks will be a challenge I’m sure.
We’ll see what other challenges I take on over the next 11 weeks and past that.