First of all, I need to thank everyone that decided to like my last post, follow my blog and let me know that there are people out there listening to what I have to say. There is nothing so inspiring than to have people actually hearing what you’re saying. It gives me hope that maybe, someday I really will say something important and that will make a real difference and make things worth it. I recently commented on a blog that I follow extensively and I said that what I want to feel most is to feel important and that what I’m doing is important. And, although I didn’t blog on Friday, I did feel that way seeing what everyone said and did. It was almost as uplifting as the time that I had people read my blog 61 times (thanks to a certain someone touting the post that I wrote about her).
I’ve been going through a really rough period lately. I’ve been questioning many things and my entire life up to this point is in flux right now.
Because of this, I have a lot of decisions to make – and I’m not very good at making decisions. And I think that part of it is that I worry too much about how my decisions will affect other people when I really should be worrying about me.
Because at 26, I need to start acting like I’m 26. Yes, my family and friends are very important to me. But if I don’t start acting in what’s my best interest, I will never move on and move forward with my life.
I don’t know what changes are going to be made as I move forward and I realize this. And I know that I have many things I need to focus on – like my current job. But I am also focused on figuring out what is best for me and what I should be doing. And that could mean different blog entries, trying new things, retrying things that I liked to do.
Right now, I am still fighting a cold and I should already be asleep. I am going to post in the evenings now though. No more scheduling posts, or at least not for now. When I write, I post. Hopefully once a day. But we will see what happens.