I blog for myself. But sometimes, I find myself wondering if it is worth it. This is not the only blog that I use. I also use a site called 750words.com (you should check it out if you want to). And I try to write things in this blog that might garner attention from people and get people to start a discussion, and I know I haven’t been very good at that lately. But I’m tired. And I have found myself in that spot where I don’t know if it’s worth it.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t plan on stopping. Blogging and writing have been the one constant in my life pretty much all the time. And there were times when it has waned and I haven’t done it as much or as often. There have been times when I have said things I shouldn’t while blogging. There are times when I have been too open.
But maybe right now, I am not being open enough. I’m not sure.
I know that people are looking at my blog. I don’t know who – and that’s part of the appeal, but I know that people are looking. And I just need to remind myself that maybe I am reaching someone, even if it doesn’t seem that way to me all days. I need to remind myself that if I love to do this, I shouldn’t give it up.
But I am going to start planning a schedule. A day a week where I talk about something specific – and then, if I get tired of those after a few months, I will switch it up. I think that I will really focus on planning what I want to do the rest of this week and start it up next week. No more “dear journal” entries, which is basically what I have been doing up to this point. I need to take some control of this and make it something better and more organized. And then maybe I will recognize the worth more.
Do you ever just feel tired and like you need to make a change? Do you think I’ll still feel this way tomorrow or the next day as I try and do some planning?